List...I love lists...

So I know it's been a while, and to be honest, there really hasn't been much to write about lately.
DH (what we will refer to him as from this point on) came home this past weekend and is already gone again. OF COURSE!
But onto a much needed, lighter side of things, the time that we did have together was simply amazing no matter how short-lived. And that's how it always is, when we haven't saw each other for a while the initial reunion is always great, then just give it 3 maybe even 4 days if I'm lucky.

I've been thinking a lot about getting back into school, buying a house, and going to some sort of marriage seminar/counseling event....

1. I really need to be in school, because it's coming near the end of the current job I work at and I just know that I don't want to have to start from scratch. But the hardest part is actually starting, once I'm there I'm fine...I guess.
2. I really really want a nice backyard for my kids to play in and not feel like I constantly have to check up on them all the time, if I had like a privacy fence they could go out into the locked backyard and play and I would feel at ease cause they'd still be outside (a plus for them) and safe (a plus for me) And not only that but I just can not wait to redecorate my dream kitchen. And apartment living is getting pretty crappy, with all the yearly rent increases but no actual upgrades in the apartment so to speak.
3. And last but not least...DH and I need this counseling! We really do, and I've been thinking, I don't want to do anything too soon, and make any snap judgement towards ending it or straying too far away from him. I want this to work. That's the conclusion I came to during my blog absence. Some self reflection, and I realize that I do love him. Sometimes I feel like I need him, but it gets sort of weird when I realize that he needs me as well.